Esterified.

Maybe reactivating my facebook won’t be such a bad thing. It’s a great tool for professionally networking with people and I need that right now.

So, most of my colleagues were either valedictorians or salutatorians or whatever back in high school. If they weren’t, they were at least—at least—in the top 10% of their class. We’re all really smart, but I’m so over the competitive nature of some people. Honestly, it’s too much for me to handle—the arrogance, and the selfishness, and the pride. This is why I’m so quick to distance myself. It’s not that I’m the youngest in my group of friends (I’m the only one younger than 22): I’m so quick to flip the switch because I’ve been finding that a sense of humility is lacking in most of the people I used to hang with. I’ve thought about how many times I was betrayed, how many times I was screwed over by close friends. Next year should be different—I want it to be different. I’ve always been the guy that doesn’t talk much, the guy that sits back and can read someone really well just by how he or she talks (your choice of words, syntax, etc) or act. I’ll sit back and watch, try to figure a person out and then decide whether or not I should get to know someone. I’ve thought about it last night and I don’t see any point in hanging out with people I don’t really mesh with. Don’t get me wrong, they’re good people. Most of them have good intentions. I just don’t want to be involved with people where competition seems to be their only source of academic nutrition.

I don’t compare myself to others. The only person I can compare myself to is me: I set my own standards and I have a knack of following through.

“…The more that you grow/the more that they gon hate you/I’m lettin’ you know.”-Kirko Bangz, Doing Fine